Bravo The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City It had one of the most raw and emotional scenes in reality TV.
throughout Rusk In Season 5, Mary Cosby expressed concern about her son, Robert Jr. Viewers have been given clues that something is going on with Cosby's son, and the episode that aired on Wednesday, November 27, finally cleared things up.
“Robert was the poster child,” Cosby says in her confessional. “He did very well in school, getting excellent grades until he graduated. When he set his mind to doing something, he did it. He was like our prize – very smart, very progressive. This is the Robert I know. This is the Robert I am trying to reach.”
In a conversation with her son, Cosby asked him to be real with her and tell her what was going on with him, and he admitted to taking Xanax. As the conversation continues, Robert Jr. says he takes Xanax to “calm me down” and then takes Adderall to “balance the Xanax.”
Cosby asks Robert Jr. if he sees what he's doing as a problem or if he's just unhappy. He says, “Sometimes I feel like life is just raw chicken. But when I get high, it's like adding spice to it.”
Robert Jr. admitted that he started at the age of 16, and after going to a party, someone gave him Xanax, and he started using other substances such as “molly acid” and cocaine.
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“I'm not going to judge you,” Cosby said as she began to cry. “I can try to help you but you have to help yourself because I won't stand for it.”
In her confessional on the show, Cosby said she was disappointed in herself, adding, “I feel like I let him down somewhere. I'm fully aware and I know that Robert has been smoking for a week. I know he was eating foods. But still, I was trusting him in my mind, believing… “That's where it would stop and I was clearly wrong. I clearly missed the mark.”
While talking to her son, Cosby told him he was lucky to wake up every day and shouldn't waste it getting high.
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“Do you know how many people didn't wake up today?” Cosby says. “You will die.”
Robert Jr. tells his mother that he “wanted to die at that time,” adding: “I felt like a disgrace. “I felt like this world wasn't right for me.”
“If something happens to you, do you understand what will happen to me?” Cosby tells her son.
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“You're the only reason I didn't kill myself,” Robert Jr. tells Cosby, then tells him, “You should know that I love you more than anything else, more than anything in this world. I think I love you more than my father — never say never.” That I said it. But you are my friend, you are my gift to me. You are the only thing that ever made me happy. Before I had you, you were so real .
“I'm barely starting to feel happy again,” Robert Jr. said with tears in his eyes.
Cosby told Robert Jr. to “recognize, own, and change things” because he still can.
If you or someone you know is having suicidal thoughts, call or text 988 to reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.
